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Lately i keep thinking back to this memory i have from SoHi Campgrounds, the place upstate where my family has a trailer we go to during the Summer. I keep thinking about one of my good friends, Andrew. His mom died one Summer and it was really awful for everyone. But the one thing that keeps sticking in my mind is when him and I went to his trailer either a few months after or the following Summer. We walked over to his trailer and when we got there he stuck his head through the doorway and kept calling out for his mom. I just remember standing back and watching as he called over and over again into his trailer for his dead mother like he had completely forgotten. It must have occurred to him what exactly it was that he was doing because he turned around and looked at me, almost embarrassed. I have no idea why I keep thinking about this but its been haunting me the last couple of days. wtf bro

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life, man. its like, wut, you know? i completely forgot about using this/brandon found it and made fun of me but fuck that i need to collect my thoughts on a public forum because goddamn it thats just what people do. right now, outwardly, everything is jawesome. my band is playing shows consistently, theres a pretty girl in my life, i've been going to the jim, and next year im going to be living in a giant house with all my friends. inwardly im still slowly losing my mind in what im pretty sure is the earliest onset of alzheimers ever. i learned about this concept called user illusion that freaks me the fuck out that basically states that nothing is real and everything we do is thought up moments before we actually do it so we've already created a destined path. what the fuck is that shit. i dunno. whyd i do this again? oh yeah chantal said she liked this. LOVE YOU <3 <3 <3
also, screamo fucking rules, listen to screamo.