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Lately i keep thinking back to this memory i have from SoHi Campgrounds, the place upstate where my family has a trailer we go to during the Summer. I keep thinking about one of my good friends, Andrew. His mom died one Summer and it was really awful for everyone. But the one thing that keeps sticking in my mind is when him and I went to his trailer either a few months after or the following Summer. We walked over to his trailer and when we got there he stuck his head through the doorway and kept calling out for his mom. I just remember standing back and watching as he called over and over again into his trailer for his dead mother like he had completely forgotten. It must have occurred to him what exactly it was that he was doing because he turned around and looked at me, almost embarrassed. I have no idea why I keep thinking about this but its been haunting me the last couple of days. wtf bro

dicks everywhere

life, man. its like, wut, you know? i completely forgot about using this/brandon found it and made fun of me but fuck that i need to collect my thoughts on a public forum because goddamn it thats just what people do. right now, outwardly, everything is jawesome. my band is playing shows consistently, theres a pretty girl in my life, i've been going to the jim, and next year im going to be living in a giant house with all my friends. inwardly im still slowly losing my mind in what im pretty sure is the earliest onset of alzheimers ever. i learned about this concept called user illusion that freaks me the fuck out that basically states that nothing is real and everything we do is thought up moments before we actually do it so we've already created a destined path. what the fuck is that shit. i dunno. whyd i do this again? oh yeah chantal said she liked this. LOVE YOU <3 <3 <3
also, screamo fucking rules, listen to screamo.

whens the apocalypse gonna get here already

so ive decided im getting pretty fucking sick of indie music. like neutral milk hotel and all that other bullshit. i dunno i just need a break. i highly recommend a download of most, if not all, of the songs from the stupid stupid henchmen. probably one of the only bands i consistently listen to.
and if youre looking for a good mind fuck i recommend reading this.
i've also come to the conclusion that the only things i get joy out of in life any more is drawing, drums, and riding my bike. and also the occasional videogame. believe it, nigga, believe it.
lastly, if youre interested in either animation, graffiti or just ridiculous good art in general, check out blu. pretty much everything he does is amazing.





go watch muto too if you havent already.

Bitch Ass God Damn

theres nothing like seeing the band you got kicked out play music without you at your school. wow what a fucking heart ache. but enough feeling sorry for myself, heres wallpapers!

















oh and listen to math rock. http://mathvsrock.blogspot.com/. theres some good shit on there. HELLA discography and other great things to collect. im listening to planets right now and its amazing. shword

tiny tigers

what is this i dont even

pic related

going back to new paltz on sunday. going to have an apartment with brian. gonna rule balls, man. this week my crazy aunt infiltrated our house and made everyone miserable. she got evicted from her apartment for not paying rent for 3 months and being an intolerable mentally unstable hunk of farts. yesterday after a big fight my brother called the police and they took her to elmhurst hospital where she is being psychoanalyzed. she is probably bipolar. i also found out today that an old childhood friend is bipolar, has aspergers and is most likely gay. life is fucking weird. im going to go ahead and copy chantal and post pictures i like because im a straight up hardcore nigga and i dont give a FUCK. they're all drawn and shit

WOOPS THIS ISNT DRAWN LOL I FUCKED UP

oh and also i recently discovered this great fucking artist, francis bacon, that ive never heard of before. so good. so fucking good. if you've never heard of him either i highly recommend you look up some of his shit. fin

fat booty bitches

i came to this conclusion earlier in my life, probably sometime during high school. i really hope theres no afterlife because the idea of living forever scares the shit out of me. knowing that there is going to be a tomorrow and a tomorrow after that and a tomorrow after that really fucks with my head. just some random shit ive been thinking about. you know, like living in an age of common sense is nice, because we're just always solving shit learning more and more about everything around us. but i dont know it wouldnt be that awful to have some shit a mystery either. but whateva who am i anyway. also, i want a capybara. they look awesome. theyre like dogs but like rodents and fuck me if that isnt the coolest thing ever.